Dear, dear, dear friends...
I owe you the BIGGEST, loudest, most hug-filled, apology ever.
Our little man, our Luke Skywalker Main, was born February 24th 2015 and the exact second he came out crying, our lives were forever changed.
This last year has been the hardest, craziest, most bittersweet, amazing, blessed, hormonal (haha), rollercoaster of emotions, totally in awe, pinch ourselves, are we dreaming year of our lives. We are so in love with Luke that sometimes I think my heart is literally going to explode into a billion tiny heart pieces like confetti out of one of those party popper thing-a-ma-bobs.
So, naturally...I had no idea what I was really getting myself into. So when I sat there, 35+ weeks pregnant, I thought I'd for sure have my act together after a few weeks postpartum and be right back to baking, cooking, photographing, blogging and being a social butterfly. Man, was I so very wrong.
I found myself taking a lot longer to adjust to mommy hood. Not in the "I love my baby" type of way (that happened immediately), but definitely emotionally and physically. Things were tough for a while. Then, when I found myself getting the hang of the whole "this is YOUR baby!!!" thing, I didn't want to do anything but be his mama. And a good one at that. I wanted to be 100% available for his every need and devote all my time an energy into loving and playing with him.
I thought, "Oh when he naps I'll get back to blogging!"...then found myself desperately needing to nap alongside him just to keep up with his bouncing amazing energy. Ooooops.
I figure, this time will only happen once with little Luke...and I just want to whole-heartedly absorb it all. I don't want to rush through it with other commitments. And as I type that, I still feel like this last year zipped by! Even with my schedule being wide open for anything Luke desired. Sheesh.
I didn't want to leave you all hanging anymore. Enough is enough and almost a year later, I'm here to at least try and touch base with you guys! I miss you! Are you even still there?!? I so hope you've stuck around this past year with me and followed along our crazy little life on Facebook and Instagram. Those two platforms have been pretty regularly updated with silly life moments, things I've been baking, and of course way too many Luke pictures (said a few people).
I thought about making a new Instagram- one that would be Luke and possibly personal life free...just stick to baking and cooking and yummy recipes. So that I would stop losing followers who apparently don't like seeing adorable baby faces (because I've lost like 500-700 followers on Instgram since having Luke and sharing pics!!!) But then baby and zzZzzz and all that jazz. We'll see if I do. Would you guys even be interested in something like that?
To those of you who HAVE stuck around, I love you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I'm not gone completely, but as long as I feel the Lord calling me to step away from blogging and fully 100% commit to mommy hood, I will do so.
But I also can't WAIT to hear that calling to come back and write again. Share life with you all again on this here blog. Don't give up on me! I'll be back here and there and hopefully very soon! With recipes! And fun!
And maybe baby pictures. Who knows.
All of these amazing pictures were taken by the breathtakingly talented Bernadette Madden!